I thought the article described your behaviour pretty well. I've thought for quite some time the biggest problem is that you lack an appropiate amount of self-esteem.

And the article posted by 12in Driver... hits that nail directly on the head.

"copycats are more likely to be insecure..."

"Often they are lacking in confidence and aping someone they really
would like to resemble."

sort of like your having a queer eye for the straight guy.